Why I Do What I Do

     Thank goodness I have a place to just spill thoughts out where no one is going to judge my spelling and grammar.. :)

     This is a topic I've thought about a lot recently, and so I decided that I might as well write about it here, because it makes such a great place to store non-personal thought. Now that almost no one is here its even better.
      Many people wonder about the things I do. I'm very weird in many ways from 99 percent of American kids, especially where I live. I don't have, watch, or support television. I have a whole list of words I won't say that most kids I know (and almost all hold to a strict no-swearing-or-anything-near-standard) wouldn't hesitate. I have odd views on how to deal with people who do use such words, and am not troubled by those who swear like so many I know are. I own no new technologies and don't really have a desire to. I work hard to get very good grades and I have gone to church for many years despite deep opposition throughout all my immediate family.  Of course, I know I'm not the only odd one out there, and that everyone is unique in a different way, but I want to discuss the reason's why I am this way, and the reasons why many of us have these unique qualities.
      There are a lot of bad reasons to be driven to do things and be unique in such regards. One of the worst is when something or someone else is forcing you to do them without any choice or thought on your part. The person doesn't grow, and in fact, if they do gain freedom one day, they will often part ways with everything they used to be forced to do no matter how good those things were.
     Another wrong way to go about being unique and good is to do it only for competition's sake. Succeeding and being good just to be better than ones friends, siblings, or parents because one has something to prove to the world or to themselves will only lead to sadness and a lack of self-esteem. So thus they engage themselves in as much work and activity as possible, robbing themselves of many of the things that make them happy. Just as the wise man Dieter F. Uchtdorf once said, "True happiness comes not through frantic activity, but through being settled on a firm foundation of truth."
    Now that a couple of negative examples have been exhausted, perhaps it is time to tell why I myself live and try from day to day. Well, at the end of the summer after my amazing experience in my church's seminary following my 9th grade year, I made a determination, an ultimatum, really, of what my life would be dedicated to. And that thing I chose to be dedicated to, besides my religious authority, was my future family. I dedicated my life to my future wife and each and every one of my future kids. I do the good things I do because I care for my family and want to make the best life for them possible. Albeit, this reason to live and succeed does make failure that much more painful, for when I fail and mess up, I hurt the lives of many future others besides myself, it has brought me great joy and happiness. That's why I live from day to day, to learn to become the man that my family needs me to be...